Amazing Grace,how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.


it has been another LOOOOONG period of time since i blogged, you'll know why when the time's right. anyway i think that photo i got from photobucket's really cool, and therefore i shall continue searching, and posting it here, cos it's all so pretty and meaning and, ah. and i'm so not going to resize them, so im just going to arrange it accordingly to size, HAHA.

today is so xian, X-I-A-N.
(be thankful that i'm blogging)





would you run with me if i were running away from reality?


and i want to run.away.from.reality.


please phone me, give me a reality call.

i just want my ever-so-messy-but-cosy room back, please.
imagine. you've been living with this whole set of furnitures since you've moved to this house, and thats like nearly 8 years back, and now a total new set comes in. i just can't get used to it, and worse, my tv's gone. and i keep falling down banging everywhere, just because of the new furnitures. and everything smells of WOOD, to be more specific, PINE. everything. including your lousy chair. everything is of wood colour. and you just remember the times i used to do homework on the bed, eat and do every retarded things on the bed and floor, but i can't do it now anymore. i can't accept anymore changes, please stop the evolving, i can't afford. for your info i have this huge scratched red patch on my back because of the fallS. and let me stay as what i am, i can't keep morphing.

today's a wonderful wednesday.
i made my ic, HAHAHA.

AND FOR THE POST WANTED POST EVER, yizhen is blogging, OMG!
haha.
and THANKS TO RARA, i'm going to blog (with all the photos she sent me).



carnival day

it's fun, HAHA, be myself, PREFECT!







auntie, uncle, da jie, xiao mei,
mai three five kebab hao ma?
one twenty, one twenty, only one twenty.

got money, come here
got money, come here
we've got cupcorns, at one dollar
yummy kebabs, at one twenty
got money, come here
got money, come here

lol.

and.


SIMPSONS DAY.

[if you did realise, im waiting for photobucket to load, cos i can't have picts without it!]
[it's taking forever!]
[damnit, i didn't know those photos were taken, RARA, RAWR.]



























there, no editting AT ALL. i feel embarrassed.





TO END THIS WITH A LIGHTER NOTE, DORA THE EXPLORER, yay!





haha, yes RARA, BLOGGED! there should be more photos to come, HAHAHAH;
(just wait for photobucket!)

YAWN,
YES I WILL BLOG ABOUT WHAT WE DID, rara and yvette.
but not now, haha.
cos i just fell down like one hour ago, frm standing on a chair to lying on the floor, no more elaborations, my head hurts. ): and its sucks to have a BALUKU on the head, boohoo. i believe i've caught huilun's virus, the klutz one, ah.
please ask me how my head is, HAHAHAH.
so yes, i'll blog next time!

haha, i forgot my bday post, but it's still gonna be dated 31/07/07, and im writing on 15/08/07, which is when i'm already 15 years 2 weeks and 1 day OLD. yup.
it's really funny.
and i'm really very lazy to blog about who smsed me or blah, haha.

ON BEHALF OF GOHYIZHEN, i would like to thank everyone, HAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYed.

zomg, it has been a week since SPECTRUM which is 20072007, but it felt like it was yesterday, also felt like last month. grr, thats the post-PI BLUES. you feel that its still near. ): i want PI 4 time every year, HAHA. i shall blog about E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G that happened, lol.

i came to school in PANIC, because of SOMETHING that shouldn't be mentioned here. and haha, it was good in the end (: after MOTHER TONGUE, we left class, more panic, changing, decorating, practicing, adjusting uniforms, SETTLING THE EMOTIONS. we had so much to do in such a short period of time, tsk.

so school A came so early, and i talked to them, haha, i felt like a freak lah omg, im not so scary what, but haha, they're sec 2s, i allow them to be scared. HAHA.

then school B . i said hello, and told them about the CC board, THEY BLOODY ROLLED THEIR EYES AT ME just because i said the board is nice, cos i have some effort. but it's nice what, what snoobish people.

haha, soon ST PAT'S came. 4 of them. HAHA, tuition friend, =.=
i felt like idiot, cos i asked questions and NO ONE answered.
so i ask, "ey why you all ask for 2 extra slots arh?"
clint or someone replied, "cos we're special."
and my =.= face came. HAHA. but they're funny people, HAHAHA.

soon it started. I WAS SO SO SO NERVOUS.

when all the EXCO on stage, yvette, rara, vidthiya and all cheered for me, 'GO! YIZHEN!' and i was going to give =.= face but apparently no one would be able to see. HAHA.

sadly, we screwed up the EXCO bowing, and i almost fell. thats damn EMBARRASSING and UNGLAM, but no one remembered! and surprisingly people told me it was okay, yay.

oh and i was always SMILING, according to so many people, but hello, its so funny cos when you're on stage, everyone looks so small and CUTE, and i have CLASSMATES who keep making me want to laugh, but haha, me and denise and krystel were talking behind the smile, and i realised that denise was talking to sally too.

oh, IM OFFICIALLY AND EXCO MEMBER.
PUBlications chairperson.
haha.

the funniest was the performanceS. haha, band one especially. THANKS SO MUCH KRYSTEL, KAILING, DENISE AND JASLYN! haha, it was hilarious, from what we hear from the LAUGHTER, it must have indeed made the atmosphere less tensed luh, haha. then the collide was so funny. cos someone apparently shoved the mic to me, and the wire cannot extend anymore, so i walked boldly and passed it to someone then go back to my rightful place, GRR. it was ma lu can. but haha, not much atonal happenings, prefects can sing after all. (:

then haha, then it ended! so its BUFFET and CHAPERONING. haha, food's the best! haha. i realised that krys already know her chaperonee, HAHA, i know my chaperonee, but i've nevet talked to him in tuition before, ahah. lucky st pats wasn't boring like *** and ***, haha. so i had fun luh, HAHAHHA. oh, it was CLINT'S AND MATTHEW'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN. haha, school tour. JUNXIANG and MATTHEW had to go. so we were left with CLINT AND RAEDI. watched abit NPCC POP, haha, knock knock, HAHAHA.

OH, my section did the GAY filming of happy bday video, haha, i think i was so GAY.

but haha, so i had tuition later (AGAIN), and it was so retarded, cos SOMEONE spoiled my image, went to tell people that im HYPER, grr, no. my image's gone, so ya, THANKS. haha.

oh, i went to salimah's blog and decided to QUOTE.

"So congratulations my dear wonderful amazing prefects! You guys made your PI AMAZING! Now it's your time to rest and focus on your studies but don't forget the Sec 4 Farewell ... "
-salimah


photos. later okay.

HAHAH, LOL, THIS IS GOING TO BE SHORT + SWEET.
haha, me and jaslyn are MONSTERS?


[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
you were nvr a monster hahaa

&words can't bring me down says:
HAHA, you'd never know

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
"RAWR!" goes yizhen. haha

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
yizhen's massive transformation!

&words can't bring me down says:
'grrr' she goes again

&words can't bring me down says:
'GAHHHH' goes jaslyn, OH MY GOSH, shes a REAL moster.

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
HAHA

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
GAHHHHH

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
i bite! GAHHHHH

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
ok i think it' getting super lame now haha

&words can't bring me down says:
LOL, this is going on my blog.

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
haha

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
GAHHHH goes jaslyn(:

&words can't bring me down says:
'GRRRRRRRRRRR, dont you dare talk again!' growled yizhen

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
"GAHHHHH. whatever" howled jaslyn

[Ĵ] # i died a long time ago says:
brb


when she BRB-ed, i posted this. hahah.

AND NOW JASLYN monster's BACK.

http://www.chinadaily.com.cn/lifestyle/2007-05/01/xin_4805040109516913016610.jpg

i think this pict is really cool. haha, i think this pict suits this song.


Christina Aguilera - Beautiful

Spoken: Don't look at me
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, i saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do (no matter what we do)
No matter what they say (no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay
And everywhere we go (everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine (sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

ey omg, im back to blog! like finally! italics are hannah's words!

LAST WEEKEND WAS SUPERB! last weekend was the bestest ever lately:D

IT WAS HILARIOUS OKAY. imagine!

if you reached home at 11pm still wearing what you wore frm 8am, then deciding not to shower and go to sleep immediately, then start to receive phone calls and messages from your BELOVED BATCHMATES, waking you up from your sleep telling you to go to her house for impromptu sleepover, saying that someone's FATHER is downstairs waiting for me to come or he wouldn't leave her house, and you are the DECIDING FACTOR facing all the stress and whatsoever. HAHA, there was so much panic. then you were getting ready when a phonecall from your friend said they're at the carpark of your house waiting for you. how much stress did we face, HAHAH. then we went to pick up a very reluctant yizhen at like 12.15am:D i think it really felt unreal, i never expected my mom to entertain our nonsense, haha.went for roti prata at the coffeeshop downstairs after that and we reached home at around 1 IN THE MORNING. no one wanted to listen to my " you cant SLEEP, its a SLEEPOVER" theories, so we went to sleep around 3, after watching 'the face'.okay so i fell asleep while watching, but whatever, joyce and yizhen the scaredy cats were trying to suffocate themselves under about 6 pillows. and it wasnt even scary! HA.we woke up at around 7.30 cause my mum wanted to bring us to macdonalds(: ate pancakes/big breakfast before joyce tottered off to tuition and yizhen and i went back to my house to sleep, HAHA.hung out being lazy till we had to leave for BAND

FIESTA! okay it was fun and botanical gardens wasnt that hot, so thank god. BUT THERE WAS NO PRIZE):tsk, such horrible organizers. i think we stood there whining for about ten minutes about prizelessness, before we launched into singing songs:Dsunday ended too fast, urgh.and then it was back to school.

hahaha, alright.
presenting once again, the lazy blogger, GOH YI ZHEN!

HAHAHA. im going to blog. like long awaited.
yay i played ABD game with nurul just now. HAHA.

and in 3e5 its funny.
or rather, sitting beside yvette and shiying is funny.
yvette has the funniest 'WHY' on earth lah. and her BEST FRIEND-ing issues. HAHA.
then that shiying, look at her letters man. your eyes will just STOP, DROP, ROLL. haha.

ok. i was supposed to let you guys know what yvette says about me. HAHA.

"sitting beside yizhen is absolutely nonsensical but funny, hahhah.

mrs geography : so the rest of you are just fence-sitters? (she asked us to raise our hands to answer some question and less than half of the class responded. what does fence-sitters mean anyway?!)yizhen : (doing something other than listening to her) huh? french kissers?

TSKTSK yizhen. and mrs geography is so ARGH.how are we gonna survive six weeks."

---pinkprincesses.blogspot.com

haha. now you know. (:

HAHAHA. IM BACK AGAIN. FINE.

and me and hannah is like crazy people who keeps singing 'The End Of The World'.

HAHAHA, shall watch 200 pounds beauty!


Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world,
`cause you don't love me anymore?
Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love.
I wake up in the morning and I wonder why ev'rything's the same as it was.
I can't understand, no I can't understand, how life goes on the way it does!
Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said good-bye.

ok hi friends. i think im crazy lah. but blogging is indeed a good thing to do when one is down or has no one to talk to. and im chanting for my phone to ring with a sms that says "ey, i cant sleep. call me if you're awake!" or even just a call like "ey, i need to talk to you". oh rawr. and yesterday, hais. i just cant understand why lah. dumbos. anyway rawr, i read my OWN blog. like just www.zizzled.blogspot.com. and realised that i had a 100th post. and i touched my phone, trying to see if there's a 100th or 1000th photo. and there is a 1000th one. it got ruined. cos it was the photo that jingqian laoshi was holding nic and asking us to take a photo. so like okay, the pic is that way. what luck! now i await my 1100th or 1111th pict. HAHA. and omg, im getting so wordy and i tell you what. all this words is indeed what that directly came out of my brain. no 2nd thoughts to type out. haha. shall skip to another blog.

HAHA, I NEED JOKES. so i read my emails again. and mabel ong sent me this. its really meaningful lah.


Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.

1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz.
I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello." I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain
One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance, and put her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.. Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached.. It read: "Thank you so much ! for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others." Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve. In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him. "How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. "Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it. "Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient. "Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins. "I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left.. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies.. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path. In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way. Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand! Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition. 5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts... Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister. I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away". Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.



Most importantly.................. "Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching." NOW more than ever - Peace...Pass It On.....

I FEEL LIKE THIS DRUG TRAFFICKER WHO'S TRYING TO HIDE FROM POLICE. AND I HATE THAT FEELING.


i swear i need attention.you can call me idiot or what, just dont go overboard. cos it really hurts. and what kind of rubbish promise is that. i dont understand why we can talk on the phone like some haapy childhood mates but somehow, nothing just comes out when i see you. like i try to be the usual me, but you just will turn me down and down.i may be rather non-existant, not clever, not special, not pretty, but please bear in mind lah, i am a human. but i dont mind being a ghost. really. but i know it's gonna be rather long till that day. and now im even thinking, do you even treat me as a firend. like i really want to know what you'll do if i'm 'scheduled' to die tomorrow. at least i have my plans. but do you? grow up lah please, not like you're younger than me by a few years. eff it.

EH OMG, i just got the most shocking news. like, OMG lor. andre is attached! HAHA. like wow, what happened? i can imagine what happens, and now i still think its freaky. hope he doesnt see this. HAHA, im still shocked. like so freaky right. i shan't go on. HAHA. i think im crazy.

AH. THE LAST WORDY POST FOR TODAY.
haha, i dont like to blog about what i do lah. so haha, my blog is RUBBISH.
and omg, i really want to talk on the phone know lah.
some kind soul whoever you are, call me or make me call you lah. or i shall ask if i can call my SLC loves. haha. AND O-M-G, tmr got band.

HAHA, i just did the test. and eh omg, i thot i was abit cleverer. but some questions are so chim that i just anyhow MINEEMANEEMINEEMORE! haha. ok rawr, im so tired!

HAHA HUILUN, THE SEVEN THINGS.

'task' given: write 7 stuff about myself which i consider to be weird

"According to the rules of the meme:People who are tagged should write a blog post of 7 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly.In the end, you need to choose 7 people to be tagged and list their names.Don’t forget to leave a comment that says ‘you are tagged’ in their comments and tell them to read your blog."

1. i LOVE curry but i really DON'T TAKE CHILI.
2. i bite whatever im holding. and its rather GROSS. (e.g. phone, papers, hp pouch, FINGERS) and and i totally allow you to SLAP me if you see me doing that.
3. i often use the wrong hand to hold my cutleries, only to realise after like 5 mins?
4. i VERY SELDOM survive a day without an injury. like one wound recovers, another comes. SO IRRITATING RIGHT!
5. i call myself YI-RRITATING. haha. also YI-telligent.
6. im a JACK OF ALL TRADES, MASTER OF NONE.
7. i named my BOTTLE jack partly due to no.6


HAH. I CAN GET SEVEN PEOPLE TO DO THIS.
sally, michelle, carol, yvette, jolenelim, leer, rara.

p.s. i realised that i shouldn't put all the ppl from church. cos huilun did already! HAH, SO YA.

HAHAH HELLO YIZHEN'S BACK. but im not going to nag. HURHUR.
ohohoh. i've got this sudden liking for UNDER THE SEA. and i dont know why. so expect me to sing in your ear.

"under the sea, under the sea..."

Under The Sea by Little Mermaid

SEBASTIAN
(Ariel, listen to me. The human world, it's a mess.
Life under the sea is better than anything they got up there.)

The seaweed is always greener
In somebody else's lake
You dream about going up there
But that is a big mistake
Just look at the world around you
Right here on the ocean floor
Such wonderful things surround you
What more is you lookin' for?

Under the sea, under the sea
Darling it's better down where it's wetter
Take it from me
Up on the shore they work all day
Out in the sun they slave away
While we're devoting full time to floating
Under the sea, ha ha...

Down here all the fish is happy
As after the waves they roll
The fish on the land ain't happy
They sad 'cause they in the bowl!
But fish in the bowl is lucky
They in for a worser fate
One day when the boss get hungry
Guess who goin' be on the plate?

Wo-no, under the sea
Under the sea
Nobody beat us, fry us and eat us
In frickazee
We what the land folks loves to cook
Under the sea we off the hook
We've got no troubles, life is the bubbles
Under the sea (under the sea)
Under the sea (under the sea)
Since life is sweet here, we got the beat here
Naturally (naturally-ee-ee-ee)
Even the sturgeon and the ray
They get the urge and start to play
We've got the spirit, you've got to hear it
Under the sea

The newt play the flute
The carp play the harp
The plaice play the bass and they soundin' sharp
The bass play the brass
The chub play the tub
The fluke is the duke of soul (yeah)
The ray, he can play the Ling's on the strings
The trout rockin out
The blackfish she sings
The Stout and the Sprat
They know where it's at
And oh, that blowfish blow!

Yeah, under the sea
Under the sea
When the sardine begin to beguine
It's music to me (music is to me)
What do they got, a lot of sand?
We've got a hot crustacean band
Each little clam here know how to jam here
Under the sea
Each little slug here cutting a rug here
Under the sea
Each little snail know how to wail here
That's why it's hotter under the water
Yeah, we in luck here down in the muck here
Under the sea

haha. that explains it. (:

HAHA.
THE PHOTOS!! (:
























SO THERE.
YAY!
oh anyway im happy today.
partly cos i went out and ate WILLY WONKA chocolate.
HEH.

MY 100th POST!

ahahaha.
thats abit lag.
haha.
ok.

I SHALL POST UP MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE SONG LYRICS!

You Are My Sunshine

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamed I held you in my arms,
but when I woke dear, I was mistaken,
and I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are gray
you'll never know dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you and make you happy
if you will only say the same
but if you leave me to love another
you'll regret it all some day

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy, when skies are gray,
you'll never know dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my sunshine away.

You told me once dear you really loved me
that no one else could come between
but now you've left me and love another
you have shattered all my dreams.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy, when skies are gray,
you'll never know dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my sunshine away.

haha. yay.

TKGSSB GOT GOLD

haha. okay.
its like today is amazing lor.
haha. only went for 1st period today.
RAWR. GOT BIO REMEDIAL HOMEWORK TO DO.
i must grad from the bio remedial lah.
i dont want to do the homework lah.
haha.
but will do. i think.
haha.
anyway.

-----fast forward to 11am-----
it was scary.
and i was having headache.
suffering in silence.
rawr.
totally didnt have any feeling of syf leh.
only go on stage lah.
then i forgot got judges.
only until ending then remembered.
then smiled at the end lah, so happy.

-----fast forward to 2.30pm-----
i saw my A MATHS paper.
OHMYGAWD.
i got 19/40.
im so happy lah.
even though its a fail.
like i finally got 2 digits!
and the two digits if added up is a 2 digit number too! OMG SO HAPPY.
i finally ALMOST passed maths!
maybe only for a maths lah. cos i like it.
mrs ang pointed out, its just one question that has this careless mistake.
or else i'll get 20 okay.
so happy. (:

-----fast forward to 3.30pm-----
i went to help the pops thing.
eh fun lor.
i hope i was a pop.
hahaha.

-----fast forward till 4.30pm-----
TKGSSAX <3 went to celebrate at swensons.
we deserve it okay.
all the hard work.....
and the pain from biting the mouthpiece,
my lips still hurts kay.
haiya. it'd better recover before speech day.
or else i'll be suffering in silence.

-----fast forward till 5.30pm-----
alot of us gathered at the vivaldi room there, waiting for results.
so many false alarms.
then the results came.
i know the first band got silver.
and chij toa payoh got gold.
yuhua got gold.
TANJONG KATONG GIRLS got gold.
i screamed.
quite happy at first.
then realised.
WHERE IS THE GWH?
after much discussion, mssim said like that is the result lor.
and some of us broke down.
like its sad lor.

-----fast forward till 8.30pm-----
lena called.
she just told me;
THAT THE GOLD WITH HONOURS RESULTS NOT OUT YET! YAY.
SO WE STILL HAVE CHANCE, YAY.
WAS SO HAPPY.
hee.

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so that was like the mood change.
damn scary right.
and to think i'm hungry now cos i didnt eat dinner properly.

rawr.

shall eat marianne's cookies.
HAHA.
BYE.

HAHA. YAY IM HERE.
today we had band.
on good friday.
occupied me at least, or else i seriously dont know what i'll think, and may even just die or boredom.
HAHA. IM LAZY TO ELABORATE LAH.
just say the going home part.
the situation is.
i was sitting at the foyer.
then i could see ms sia, ms sia could see me.
then seniors came down, said bye to me. cos apparently i was waiting for my parents.
then i saw mr peh, so talked to him. he was weraing t-shirt + shorts + SLIPPERS. he was saying band full day but we only played around 1 hour, so shouldn't really be very tired. and thats true. cos really not very tired mah.
then after the convo, my parents we almost turning in the foyer, ms sia talked to me.
ms sia: eh yizhen you sec what arh?
me: oh, 3! (proud to be one. xD)
ms sia: wah. i thought you sec 2 leh. just now some seniors were saying you look like some primary school kid sitting there, then i told them 'no lah, she sec 2 already.' then end up you sec 3, aiyo.
me: *smile and laugh abit*
what was going through my mind initially was like. do i really look that young? thats RATHER sad lah.
then it evolved to be like hey, im young okay. or i look young, despite being TALLER than HAnnaHAlysHAAshiq. note her name has THREE HAs. and A BIT taller than jiebao and gemma too. but i hope i was smaller. HAHA. i dont know why too. but i want to grow taller too. LOL. im weird FOR ONCE. lol.

then went for dinner.
very full lah.
HAHA.
tmr's going to be boring without band and CHURCH.
omg i miss HUILUN AND XINYI.
boohoos.
rawr i notice the lack of pictures in my blog.
shall update random pictures. HAHA.
cos its too WORDY.
HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

GOODBYE(:

TODAY WAS OMG.
its like hello? why cant they just let us go at 1025. *rolls eyes*
and i was so angry today lah.
thinking about those can make me angry again like now.

Lessons. rawr.

1st lesson was like chinese.
okay lah. just reading that thing only.
and i was just listening to people read and playing expressions with joyce,
HAHAHAHA.

2nd lesson was english.
whole lesson do comprehension.
you think very interesting arh.
havnt reach classroom want us to start doing?
keesiao.

3rd lesson. mathematics.
like wth.
come in to class she damn er xin le lor.
so we got into our groups. and guess what. quadraticians had TWO STROKES. omg lah.
people, do your work lah, or at least copy abit. of course dont copy blindly lah.
so ML made us do some goals planning thing.
in 3e5,
100% wanted to pass.
15% wants A.
and that *** is one of them, you can want to get A lah, but no need to haolian until like that, make me like so lan when im not exactly very, even though i am lan.
so we had to do bloody strategies to improve lah.
i put: 1) use 1 hour to do maths on mondays and tuesdays, at least 5 questions.
and she say very vague. where got lor.
then she stare at me.
then pull out my shirt. i could have just screamed the F word at that split second.
but i said 'EHH~' like the annoyed/irritated/omg-what-you-want tone.
and tucked my shirt BACK in.
HELLO? OMG.
FISH YOU LAH.
IT WAS TUCKED IN LOR.
BLOODY ASSHOLE.
NOT LIKE I NEVER TUCKED IN BEFORE IN MY LIFE.
AND IM JUST ONE OF THE LUCKY FEW WHO GOT YOU.
SO EVEN IF YOU THOUGHT MY SHIRT IS MESSY,
YOU COULD HAVE JUST SAID THAT IN MY FACE.
RATHER THAN PULLING IT OUT.
AND I COULD HAVE SUED YOU.
RAWR.

just realised that i keep wanting to sue people.
one more.

AFTER SCHOOL.

the GUAIKIAs went KFC to eat.
I wanted bandito pockett so badly.
yea.
so i ordered.
the PERSON said 2 mins she send over.
i actually talked to them until pass 10 mins.
and my food is like WOW. NOT HERE.
so i went up to the counter.
me (buay song) :'can i have my bandito pockett?'
she (walau look) :' when did you order?'
me (whatHELL) :'look like 10 mins ago?'
she (cant believe): 'huh really'
me : 'ya.'
she: come back 3 mins later.
me (walking away): 'WALAU SUCK LAH!'
the entire KFC could hear. anyway KFC was green just now.

5 MINS LATER.

me (totally pissed): *stood there didn't say anything*
she(who-are-you look): 'YES?'
me : 'my bandito pockett'
she: *pass it to me*
me: *walk away black faced*


COS ITS LIKE WTH LOR. i wait so long leh.
and so late then get my food.
so many people got their food already lor.

FINISHES EATING
yixuan and co. came over.
so the woman did send the bandito over.
but send to them.
they didnt know.
so they eat.
WALAU. MINE LEH.
but she quite stupid right. so many people there liao.
maybe she think cheryl phong eat 2x serving lah, also cant blame her.
but carol also didnt get her food.
and yixuan they all only got one extra bandito.
so its like what the hell lor.
not yours dont take lah.
stupid.

FINISHES EATING.

went to the busstop.
waseh like got a queue sia.
so just queue lah.
then softballers and some other random people cut the queue lah.
so the bus came.
we feng gong shou fa didnt get in.
the cut queue people got in.
wth lor.
and they claim they didnt know there was a queue.
not obvious enough arh.
BLIND then say lah, i can always forgive you.

so we took taxi.
waste of money lah.
but was damn shiok cos like so fast.

REACHES BEDOK STADIUM

so many people there liao.
3e5 attendance like shit.
so many people sick and blah.
and **** our banner didnt win any single shit.
i reckon they blind.
everyone also say 3e5 banner nicest lor.
damn BULLSHIT lah.

mass dance turned out as usual, stupid and funny.
i had to partner shiying and thats sad lor.
and my group was lead by mdm khoo to run around. we ran one full round. HOW SMART.

we went novelty.
got 3rd.
quite okay lah.

and bunch of peeps sat behind us. kept on kb-ing.
so noisy.
and never sit according to class. still ask me for sweet.
if i give you means you're not the damn kaobei one.
damn kb laugh like some animal.
maybe really is.
who knows.

so one peep kicked over the 100+ behind weiling. she told weiling to stand up.
thats it.
WHAT THE HELL LAH.
she stand then what you want.
never even help to clear up.
what attitude.
we your maid arh.
spill our drink then want us to clean up.
1st u spill our drink should pay back.
2nd you dirty the place should clean up
3rd you tell weiling to stand then you dont clean up.
4th you deserve to eat shit.

THATS WHY IM BLOODY PISSED TODAY.

and around 6pm
my dad came and pull me go.
got some play lor.
rawr.

anyway thanks mr peh for the ice cream and 100+.

the play was okay lah.
thats all.
i didnt like my dinner.
quite yucky.
and im damn thristy now.
and my mum just told me to shut down the comp.
RAWR LAH.

and i just realised this is such a long post. no pict somemore. can die reading.
i dont want some freaking idiots to read.
just hope you, like usual, dont come. YES.

must RETIRE TO BED ALREADY.
theres band at 9am tmr.

DEMORALISED TOTALLY.
BULLSHIT MAN.

for this few days, there were like alot of misunderstandings between me and them, but now it is settled already, so dont go and ask me what happened unless you really think i'll tell you.

SATURDAY. band. quite sad. yea. no details.
after band went church.
then went cut hair.
omg my hair is like destroyed now lah.
by who?
cos is like i choose the hairstyle liao, then flip to the page put there liao, put everything properly liao right, that LIYUNLAOSHI appear come and say the one i chose not nice lah, then she went to choose for me.like COME ON LAH, HAVE A LIFE LAH, YOUR HAIR SO UGLY WANT TO DECIDE FOR ME. and worse thing, auntie anne followed what liyunlaoshi chose. HELLO? WHERE IS MY CUSTOMERS' RIGHT? I CAN SUE YOU YOU KNOW. DONT THINK I YOUNG DONT DARE LOR. wth lah. and now my future ruin liao lah, so ugly, how to live man. SEE LAH. YOU SPOILED MY LIFE. and made my self-esteem go down yet again.
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SUNDAY. today is not all that fun. cos i left early. and i didnt talk to many people.
morning went, dad fetched me. so we went to eat breakfast today.
because of the incident, cried alot yesterday, so couldn't really stop.
then during chong bai still like that so i just cried it out.
finally stopped, felt alot better, and all my xin qing all shou shi hao le.
so now its sort of back to the normal yizhen.
we had this games sesssion.
PEOPLE. I TELL YOU. IT SO STUPID.
like we pass this bible down, then the person will ask 'whats this?'
so just keep asking the person who passed to you, and only sean can answer, he will answer and we have to pass the answer down. it just keeps repeating. like so diao.
then played poisonous ball. =.=
i stood there like statue.
ball come also dont care.
HAHA.
then i left and went for tuition.
cos i missed thursday's class.
end up jiamin is that tuition de.
HAHA.
but i felt so weird.
HAHA.
walked home alone. (when was the last time?)
heh.
SO NOW AT HOME. HAPPILY AT HOME. yay.

OH. YIZHEN IS HERE JUST TO SAY THAT:

DONNACHUA IS SO GOHYIZHEN!

IM SERIOUS. LOL.

AH. SUNDAY ALWAYS ROCKS.
after service, lionel was like asking us if we have prepared for the games for the camp. HAHAHA, like so obvious we didnt lah. then that xinyi keep on saying no prob, no prob, to shut lionel up. LOL. after that, we fenban-ed. our teachers didnt come, so xinyizhen went to huilun's class. LOL, xinyi kena suaned by nick like what. so funny. HAHA. after fenban, we went back for tuan qi. huilun, minwei, dezhong&weicheng were leading the praise. first they sang solo suposedly, but dezhiong said 'rang wo mnen yi qi chang' so we all sang lah. then dunno why the luiyun laoshi come and say me for singing when its their solo. LIKE WTH lor. dezhong was so funny that even huilun who was on stage was laughing also. the teens joined us. NO COMMENT. after tuanqi, we went out and that tiffany came to find us. omg lah. ate some cake and went downstairs. we saw xiaosean but he was like frowning lah, my tian. cos, he's sick and he want to eat beehoon. xinyi took this packet of beehoon but xiao sean refuse to eat. he only wants the one nic will bring for him. =.= so nic came with this beehoon and xiaosean was like so happy. but still got cry abit lah. we brought him upstairs, and xinyi fed US. haha. we went off after that with some stupid excuse. we then went bugis to buy wallet. HAHA. and also we wanted to buy peiyong present(but apparently didnt). we chose this purple wallet, nice lah. we tried to find a present for peiyong, to no avail. she want buy shirt but like so gay. HAHA. then we went long john to meet them. no seats lah, so we had to buy back church to eat lah. we studied ok. that blodwen went back earlier lor, pangseh. i finished my homework, then helped them. it was MATHEMATICS okay. like my tian, i so lan still can tech people. hope i dun teach the wrong thing sia. LOL. left quite late lah. do work until never see time, TYPICALLY YIZHEN. my mum called then i was like omg and then went back lor. HAHA. thats the end.

im gonna post 2 posts lah,
let me emo first.

omg im such a failure lah. who can freakingly get such a score i dun even think this kind of person existed at tkgs. omg lah, not that i dun understand, it just doesnt come out you see, once i get the freaking paper, i look at it and stare for like 10 mins before i even start.
freakingly, 27.4/100 for maths and 22/100 for a maths. HOW PATHETIC tell me seriously lah cos i know i suck. and what happens actually is people love me more then i do myself. i dun understand lah, im like failing everything, and i refuse to receive help from certain people. cos its not that i dunno how to do, its just that it my mental block. so freakingly, what can i expect.i just blank out. you let me do it in a nice and less tensed environment, i can do it. like omg, i duno what is happenng to me. this is not even yizhen. people, help me find the nice and happy yizhen back. PLEASE. i need your support, im serious. i dun wan to fail anymore, help me. help help.

i notice im weird. for example, i've got an B3 for my combined humans, and i passed the chem formative. AND I FAIL THOSE THAT PPL PASS. hais.

yup, solutions:
BUY:
- assesment books.
---e maths, a maths, science.

dear lord. i thank you for all those you've done for me and to me. i really thank you for giving me wonderful parents, friends like blodwen, huilun, nicholas, kailing, kimberly, weiling, jolene, and many more, but i really love them too much, don't make me leave them okay? dear lord, please allow me to find back myself, the once joyful, adorable and happy yizhen. cos i think she'd vanished. lord, help me go thru this time of difficulty, and doing you proud, by working harder and harder, i really commit myself to you, allow me to go the path that you're leading me to, and work for you, shine for you, help me appreciate surroundings more, my friends, family, and all the time i have now, i know im not shining for you, but you dun find me a disgrace, and continue to help me, let me realise the situation, bring love, joy, and peace back to me, i need the confidence to strive, lord, i believe in you, and help me believe and love myself, in lord jesus christ's name, amen.

NICE DAY.
school was the same lah.
but a breakthrough, i slept during chinese class, first time in my life.
cos she was teaching official letter writing, and hello, who doesnt know it?
and i was pissed and tired, so i slept.
recess was oh my tian, weiling waited for her fries for so damn long, and i waited for her soer damner longer. but i waited for her, i felt so wei da.
after school, LGM was so funny.
JIAHUI was is so funny. she is like some chatterbox who refused to turn off.
we discussed funny things, made my minutes look so damn funny too.
after LGM, me and kailing went parkway for SAKAE.
omg sakae is love.
im still so full, im gonna skip dinner and breakfast and recess for tmr. im seriously not going to eat tmr. im very very serious.
then we walked around.
went royal sporting house,
OMG I WANT TO BUY THAT BEACH BALL!
the colourful adidas one on sale for like only 16.90 now.
but i dint have the money- so sao xing!
BUT IM GONNA BUY IT.
heh heh, anyone, just buy that for me okay?
as my valentines' prezzie, belated.
or my christmas prezzie (: super belated.
or my bday prezzie, super duper belated.
HAHA.
maybe im just gonna buy for kailing and kailing buy for me. (:
HEH.
it's damn nice ok.
and people, i have to do alot for my NYAA the keep-fit thing, HELP ME OUT OKAY.
and haha, the moment i reached home, i used the comp till now. =.="
LOL.

WELL, some of you do know. YUP, some of you.
know that i was super depressed that something happened.
i suppose only 2 people know about that incident.
yup, and to the both of you, it's a secret to keep.
but i do not know who i will tell next.
important thing to note, i've changed alot.
from a person with NO secrets at all, to now, where i don't even know who to tell them to, and end up doing those retarded things.
.
people, thanks so much lah.
i really love all of you so much,
thanks for all the sms-es,
bringing back my smile,
my confidence,
all the joy and the jokes,
and the fooling around.
LOVE is why we care for others, and you people love me, even more than i do myself.
people, bear with me, im like emo-ing now,
from now on im going to and i will love myself more.
it's a decision made,
but i still need your help along the way, bits and bits.
help me make everything seem happy,
seem fun,
make me care for everything
ALL THE TENDER LOVING CARE.

to the people,
i will and i can keep my promise,
to not **** ******,
be happy and joyfull like the last time yi zhen,
never pass tests also must be happy,
dun feel too upset over my grades,
and to call you all 5 when i encounter anything,
but the first im gonna call will be that one.
HAH.
so im saying sorry to the rest first.
SORRY.
im gonna call the one first.
don't ask me who,
cos i may be clueless.

STILL, THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I LOVE YOU ALL. (:

BASICALLY,
today was boring.
ROBOT-day.
the day where everything dont go under your control.
7am- wake up and go for band lurh.
8am- reach. (i was on time okay..)
then CEDAR, ST NICHOLAS and FAIRFIELD came.
was quite weird having such a LARGE group for sectionals.
like it was so WOW.
yea.
then went for lunch, and went back for band.
i played loudly kay.
YAY.
HAHA YAY.
then i took the bus to church.
the whole entire church was like bloody quiet and scary,
cos theres like no one AT ALL.
and the frigging office is locked.
so i was like DIAOS.
so i started playing PUZZLE.
so retarded.
HAHA.
then went to OG to buy frigging pants cos mum dint bring my pants.
and i cant possibly wear those white shorts for service.
RAWR RAWR.
and after praise, SOMEONE made me go ice monster.
so i went.
she treated me lah.
then started saying alot of crap.
all the DADAOLI-s.
and like OMG I HATE HER LAH.
she ask me if i got problem,
i say no.
then she said it cannot be, cos everyone has problem (I DO SEE HER PROBLEM),
so she said when i say no problems, im implying i have alot of problems.
HELLO, WHATS HER FRIGGING PROBLEM.
CANT I JUST BE SO HAPPY AT THAT POINT AND HAVE NO PROBLEM.
not just this.
SHE ASKED if my relations with my family is good or bad.
so i answered frigging pissed-LY , good.
so she asked me what i meant by good.
SO EXCUSE ME, you're the one who initiated the idea of GOOD first.
so shoo off.
dont come and ask me questions that you should ask yourself.
COS I FRIGGING DUN CARE.
and 3rd thing.
she was saying sth shit about ah lians.
then i said my sch's quite free of ah lians.
and she was like, bu ke neng de(CANNOT BE), i've done research before, and 85% of youths are bu jian kang (unhealthy) OR RATHER CORRUPTED. OR JUST BAD.
so hello, cant 95% of my sch population belong to that 15 % of the good ones. SHE THINK WAD LOR. SO BLOODY IRRITATING. spoiled my day.
i totally was so pissed.
DONT REMIND ME OF IT LUH.

well.
for every subject i fail i can hit that someone 100 times.
so whahha.
i bloody failed 2 subj.
LIKE OMG WTH.
F9 and D7.
RAWR.
sorry friend, 200 hits from me.
and hello.
A maths paper not out yet.
and friggingly only 5 ppl passed.
so well, expect more.
WELLWELL.
i need more chocolates.

oh wells, TODAY, was just another day.
i was so moody lah. my tians.
cos like ya, got troubles mah.
then very troubled.
ya you people dun remind me of today.
APPARENTLY, my keychain, with the crystal heart broke, and of the 2 crystal piece, WHY THE HEART. like omg. that made me even more irritated and annoyed and agitated.
but i was crazy after i knew i passed GEOG ELECT ca.
i started to smile.
and talk alot. so stop reminding me lah.
if u remind me of whatever than happens, i may just look at you and say something else.
CHANGING SUBJECT IS A LIFELONG SKILL.

HAHAHAH.
im back to post. (:
its been like so long long time since i last posted.
haha happy.
LALALALA.
FIRST, HAPPY CNY TO ALL! (:
hmm. start frm friday.

FRIDAY
had the USUAL celebration.
BELOVED EMCEES WERE DENISE and LIANPING! (:
haha.
it was funny lah.
we had lessons lor.
3e5 had CHEM, BIO and PE.
PE had the test.
so retarded.
hahahhahaha.
CELEBRATION WAS FUNNY LAH.
me and kailing was backstage! LALALALA.
I LOVE BEING BACKSTAGE! (:
ok lah.

then i wanted to take bus 31 then change bus 23 to church.
and got lost. (:
LOL.thats sad lah.
then i think i walked for like maybe close to 500m.
so tiring.
haha. took some weird bus 13 lor.
got to some place where i could take bus 65.
yay.
and when i reach sean called me =.="
ask me if i was at the BENCOOLEN sign when i was.
I FREAKED OUT.
i kept looking around and say 'where are you'.
he was like 'its just a guess'.
i totally freaked out. and started walking super fast.
then he ask me go sim lim square.
I STUPIDLY LISTENED.
then all of a sudden,
someone frm behind used the finger to point point me.
turn over and OMG.
he was there lah. so scary LIKE GHOST.
haha.
omg the celebration was SUPERCALIFRAGILISTIC..............
the cake was nice.
WE WERE ALL IN UNIFORM! (: that was like so cool lor.
ahahah.
the photos.


HAHA NIGU FAMILY (:


yizhenhuilunxinyi


NEW SPECTACLES-ES.


LALALA. i only wrote the supercalifrag...


the pro uses the hand and the LOSER uses the fingers.


we're still kids who play with shadows.(:

thats about it lah(:



SATURDAY
HAHA. i spent the entire day cleaning up the room. >.< SUNDAY
yay. i went church.
haha. the in between story.
tiff took huilun's bible then she started writing some huilun-nicholas thing lah.
then she drew on this paper thia girl and this boy,
then they were kissing or sth.
it was labelled like HUILUN AND NICHOLAS.
and she asked me how to spell muack.
i told her lah.
and she wrote that all over the paper.
hahahahahahah.
and before that huilun was like:
'yizhen, did u see nicholas?'
'no'
'well, he was actually wearing new clothes and they look good on him!'
'oh'
LALALA. XINYI, ARE YOU THINKING WHAT IM THINKING? (:

I DID NOT GO ICE SKATING YTD.

that was long ago.




(SEANENG, HAPPY?)