im gonna post 2 posts lah,
let me emo first.

omg im such a failure lah. who can freakingly get such a score i dun even think this kind of person existed at tkgs. omg lah, not that i dun understand, it just doesnt come out you see, once i get the freaking paper, i look at it and stare for like 10 mins before i even start.
freakingly, 27.4/100 for maths and 22/100 for a maths. HOW PATHETIC tell me seriously lah cos i know i suck. and what happens actually is people love me more then i do myself. i dun understand lah, im like failing everything, and i refuse to receive help from certain people. cos its not that i dunno how to do, its just that it my mental block. so freakingly, what can i expect.i just blank out. you let me do it in a nice and less tensed environment, i can do it. like omg, i duno what is happenng to me. this is not even yizhen. people, help me find the nice and happy yizhen back. PLEASE. i need your support, im serious. i dun wan to fail anymore, help me. help help.

i notice im weird. for example, i've got an B3 for my combined humans, and i passed the chem formative. AND I FAIL THOSE THAT PPL PASS. hais.

yup, solutions:
BUY:
- assesment books.
---e maths, a maths, science.

dear lord. i thank you for all those you've done for me and to me. i really thank you for giving me wonderful parents, friends like blodwen, huilun, nicholas, kailing, kimberly, weiling, jolene, and many more, but i really love them too much, don't make me leave them okay? dear lord, please allow me to find back myself, the once joyful, adorable and happy yizhen. cos i think she'd vanished. lord, help me go thru this time of difficulty, and doing you proud, by working harder and harder, i really commit myself to you, allow me to go the path that you're leading me to, and work for you, shine for you, help me appreciate surroundings more, my friends, family, and all the time i have now, i know im not shining for you, but you dun find me a disgrace, and continue to help me, let me realise the situation, bring love, joy, and peace back to me, i need the confidence to strive, lord, i believe in you, and help me believe and love myself, in lord jesus christ's name, amen.

NICE DAY.
school was the same lah.
but a breakthrough, i slept during chinese class, first time in my life.
cos she was teaching official letter writing, and hello, who doesnt know it?
and i was pissed and tired, so i slept.
recess was oh my tian, weiling waited for her fries for so damn long, and i waited for her soer damner longer. but i waited for her, i felt so wei da.
after school, LGM was so funny.
JIAHUI was is so funny. she is like some chatterbox who refused to turn off.
we discussed funny things, made my minutes look so damn funny too.
after LGM, me and kailing went parkway for SAKAE.
omg sakae is love.
im still so full, im gonna skip dinner and breakfast and recess for tmr. im seriously not going to eat tmr. im very very serious.
then we walked around.
went royal sporting house,
OMG I WANT TO BUY THAT BEACH BALL!
the colourful adidas one on sale for like only 16.90 now.
but i dint have the money- so sao xing!
BUT IM GONNA BUY IT.
heh heh, anyone, just buy that for me okay?
as my valentines' prezzie, belated.
or my christmas prezzie (: super belated.
or my bday prezzie, super duper belated.
HAHA.
maybe im just gonna buy for kailing and kailing buy for me. (:
HEH.
it's damn nice ok.
and people, i have to do alot for my NYAA the keep-fit thing, HELP ME OUT OKAY.
and haha, the moment i reached home, i used the comp till now. =.="
LOL.

WELL, some of you do know. YUP, some of you.
know that i was super depressed that something happened.
i suppose only 2 people know about that incident.
yup, and to the both of you, it's a secret to keep.
but i do not know who i will tell next.
important thing to note, i've changed alot.
from a person with NO secrets at all, to now, where i don't even know who to tell them to, and end up doing those retarded things.
.
people, thanks so much lah.
i really love all of you so much,
thanks for all the sms-es,
bringing back my smile,
my confidence,
all the joy and the jokes,
and the fooling around.
LOVE is why we care for others, and you people love me, even more than i do myself.
people, bear with me, im like emo-ing now,
from now on im going to and i will love myself more.
it's a decision made,
but i still need your help along the way, bits and bits.
help me make everything seem happy,
seem fun,
make me care for everything
ALL THE TENDER LOVING CARE.

to the people,
i will and i can keep my promise,
to not **** ******,
be happy and joyfull like the last time yi zhen,
never pass tests also must be happy,
dun feel too upset over my grades,
and to call you all 5 when i encounter anything,
but the first im gonna call will be that one.
HAH.
so im saying sorry to the rest first.
SORRY.
im gonna call the one first.
don't ask me who,
cos i may be clueless.

STILL, THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I LOVE YOU ALL. (:

BASICALLY,
today was boring.
ROBOT-day.
the day where everything dont go under your control.
7am- wake up and go for band lurh.
8am- reach. (i was on time okay..)
then CEDAR, ST NICHOLAS and FAIRFIELD came.
was quite weird having such a LARGE group for sectionals.
like it was so WOW.
yea.
then went for lunch, and went back for band.
i played loudly kay.
YAY.
HAHA YAY.
then i took the bus to church.
the whole entire church was like bloody quiet and scary,
cos theres like no one AT ALL.
and the frigging office is locked.
so i was like DIAOS.
so i started playing PUZZLE.
so retarded.
HAHA.
then went to OG to buy frigging pants cos mum dint bring my pants.
and i cant possibly wear those white shorts for service.
RAWR RAWR.
and after praise, SOMEONE made me go ice monster.
so i went.
she treated me lah.
then started saying alot of crap.
all the DADAOLI-s.
and like OMG I HATE HER LAH.
she ask me if i got problem,
i say no.
then she said it cannot be, cos everyone has problem (I DO SEE HER PROBLEM),
so she said when i say no problems, im implying i have alot of problems.
HELLO, WHATS HER FRIGGING PROBLEM.
CANT I JUST BE SO HAPPY AT THAT POINT AND HAVE NO PROBLEM.
not just this.
SHE ASKED if my relations with my family is good or bad.
so i answered frigging pissed-LY , good.
so she asked me what i meant by good.
SO EXCUSE ME, you're the one who initiated the idea of GOOD first.
so shoo off.
dont come and ask me questions that you should ask yourself.
COS I FRIGGING DUN CARE.
and 3rd thing.
she was saying sth shit about ah lians.
then i said my sch's quite free of ah lians.
and she was like, bu ke neng de(CANNOT BE), i've done research before, and 85% of youths are bu jian kang (unhealthy) OR RATHER CORRUPTED. OR JUST BAD.
so hello, cant 95% of my sch population belong to that 15 % of the good ones. SHE THINK WAD LOR. SO BLOODY IRRITATING. spoiled my day.
i totally was so pissed.
DONT REMIND ME OF IT LUH.

well.
for every subject i fail i can hit that someone 100 times.
so whahha.
i bloody failed 2 subj.
LIKE OMG WTH.
F9 and D7.
RAWR.
sorry friend, 200 hits from me.
and hello.
A maths paper not out yet.
and friggingly only 5 ppl passed.
so well, expect more.
WELLWELL.
i need more chocolates.

oh wells, TODAY, was just another day.
i was so moody lah. my tians.
cos like ya, got troubles mah.
then very troubled.
ya you people dun remind me of today.
APPARENTLY, my keychain, with the crystal heart broke, and of the 2 crystal piece, WHY THE HEART. like omg. that made me even more irritated and annoyed and agitated.
but i was crazy after i knew i passed GEOG ELECT ca.
i started to smile.
and talk alot. so stop reminding me lah.
if u remind me of whatever than happens, i may just look at you and say something else.
CHANGING SUBJECT IS A LIFELONG SKILL.

HAHAHAH.
im back to post. (:
its been like so long long time since i last posted.
haha happy.
LALALALA.
FIRST, HAPPY CNY TO ALL! (:
hmm. start frm friday.

FRIDAY
had the USUAL celebration.
BELOVED EMCEES WERE DENISE and LIANPING! (:
haha.
it was funny lah.
we had lessons lor.
3e5 had CHEM, BIO and PE.
PE had the test.
so retarded.
hahahhahaha.
CELEBRATION WAS FUNNY LAH.
me and kailing was backstage! LALALALA.
I LOVE BEING BACKSTAGE! (:
ok lah.

then i wanted to take bus 31 then change bus 23 to church.
and got lost. (:
LOL.thats sad lah.
then i think i walked for like maybe close to 500m.
so tiring.
haha. took some weird bus 13 lor.
got to some place where i could take bus 65.
yay.
and when i reach sean called me =.="
ask me if i was at the BENCOOLEN sign when i was.
I FREAKED OUT.
i kept looking around and say 'where are you'.
he was like 'its just a guess'.
i totally freaked out. and started walking super fast.
then he ask me go sim lim square.
I STUPIDLY LISTENED.
then all of a sudden,
someone frm behind used the finger to point point me.
turn over and OMG.
he was there lah. so scary LIKE GHOST.
haha.
omg the celebration was SUPERCALIFRAGILISTIC..............
the cake was nice.
WE WERE ALL IN UNIFORM! (: that was like so cool lor.
ahahah.
the photos.


HAHA NIGU FAMILY (:


yizhenhuilunxinyi


NEW SPECTACLES-ES.


LALALA. i only wrote the supercalifrag...


the pro uses the hand and the LOSER uses the fingers.


we're still kids who play with shadows.(:

thats about it lah(:



SATURDAY
HAHA. i spent the entire day cleaning up the room. >.< SUNDAY
yay. i went church.
haha. the in between story.
tiff took huilun's bible then she started writing some huilun-nicholas thing lah.
then she drew on this paper thia girl and this boy,
then they were kissing or sth.
it was labelled like HUILUN AND NICHOLAS.
and she asked me how to spell muack.
i told her lah.
and she wrote that all over the paper.
hahahahahahah.
and before that huilun was like:
'yizhen, did u see nicholas?'
'no'
'well, he was actually wearing new clothes and they look good on him!'
'oh'
LALALA. XINYI, ARE YOU THINKING WHAT IM THINKING? (:

I DID NOT GO ICE SKATING YTD.

that was long ago.




(SEANENG, HAPPY?)